Saturday, October 10, 2009

Life raft anyone?

I'm struggling. Big time. I'm hardly sleeping, hardly eating, hardly keeping my head above water. I'm sad. I'm lonely. I'm stressed. I'm...drowning.

School is fucking insane. I haven't weighed since the gain of a couple weeks ago. Insertnamehere and I haven't seen each other in two weeks and it's likely not going to change anytime soon. Sadly, that's not so much my fault as it is his. He's just as busy as I am and, well, I'm/we/this is on the back burner for a while so that he can sort some things out. I miss him. I miss the escape that spending time with him provided. I miss how he calms me and right now, I need a lot of calming. I'm on edge. I'm going to snap. I'm scheduling a breakdown for about 1:30 this afternoon. Should be fun.

On that note, back to homework. It's all I do these days. All day, and often all night. All week and all weekend. Mama needs a break, but not for another 8 weeks. FML.


Diana said...

Oh sweetie, I remember being in college and feeling like this, like it was just too much for one person. Funny, here it is 30 years later and I'm having those exact same feelings.

Just hang in there, it will get easier and it will pass. School is tough and a lot of hard work, but it's going to be totally worth it.

Hey - my word verification is "SUCKE" -- too funny!

Carlos said...

hang in there...

Heather (aka Auntie) said...

Hang in there girl; you can make it. Sometimes you just have to choose one crisis at a time to focus on, otherwise you loose focus on everything.

We're all rootin' for ya! It will calm down soon.

Natasha said...

Oh man, I am feeling the same way right now. Maybe we could trade lives and sort things out for each other.